i cant control the universe

today, i had the opportunity to get my skck done. i am still off from work due to the small numbers of client orders (since my company heavily relies on client orders to make this business work). and it has been already 3 days i am off from work. so i thought it was a sign for me to do my skck today.

i was collected all the documents for skck, like kk, ktp, surat sidik jari, etc. and you know what? in the end they only needed 2 ktp-copies, and payment bill. that's it. shittt, why did it feel so complicated last year? i had to copy my kk or whatever it is. and also i gave some 4x6 photos to them. so that's why i prepared too much for this.

the at the office was very rude. like i know she was tired of her job, but can you be more gentle and friendly? i made a mistake for not really pay attention to what she said, but her reaction was so unfriendly. like she was really upset with me. i got bad mood for entire skck session and the worst that i was hungry too.

it didnt stop there. she wrote my profession wrong. i wasnt a student anymore. even my ktp was already updated. why she even put the wrong data. ughhhhh...

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okay, now my time to get some food (i said). i rode through the city streets and hoped i would find a well street food there. and it didnt happen. i rode until my village district, and didnt find anything interesting. then suddenly it started to rain, when i expected it would be raining after i am home. yeah it was so cloudy back then though. before that i had a plan for print my bank book. i wanted to go to the near bank in my area, but the rain made me forget about it. finally i just took shelter in seblak shop and ate them happily.

i hesitated to print my bank book after i ate seblak and the rain was gone. it was a quick rain, maybe just 15 minutes long. i said to myself, "should i go? but the street must be slippery. hmm i have to deal with that.."

but i convinced myself to go there. andd.... yeah, the employee was in his/her luch break. i had to wait for about fifteen minutes just for print book. hmm it's a no for me, i said. and went to home quickly after.

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sometimes, we cant control our daily activities, cause there are always unexpected moments through the day. my plans didnt go well, but at least i checked off three of them (skck, ate lunch, and withdrew money (sorry forgot to tell you that before i went home from bank, i withdrew some cash in atm near that)). but my habit for control everything still there. in my heart, i am still feeling a little bit disappointment. it should be that, it should like this, it should be bla bla... and i am always imagining some activities before i done that. so i have expected image and vision on it.

hahhh, i should more relax about my whole life. maybe because of this, i never feel secure for my future.

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