feeling haunted as a mid 20s woman

 i felt terrible when my mom brought me fast foods from local chain in my area. it wasnt about me being healthy at all, it was me being not deserve enough to get it.

my middle age mom still buying me foods, clothes, snacks for me even though i am almost unemployed. i am still working in my workplace but i am scared if i get fired so suddenly since there is declining sales after several months. like, i never have financial independence to begin with but my parents still accept and welcome in open arms.

feeling like a failure haunted me everyday. i lose my self worth and my self confident. i also lose my hope. and the worst thing is, i do nothing. i have done nothing to change my life. i dont use my luck at all. i just squirming on the bed and daydreaming cause making progress was hard for me. my anxiety goes up till i can't even cross out my to do list. every possibilties is blocked. my mind tells me it's never work, useless. i dont trust anything, i feel empty and sad. i am turning 26 in two months, but i havent reached something to make myself proud as an adult. good salary? nope. good career? nope nope. master at one skill? even i dont know what my biggest skill is.

i am ashamed for my demeanor. i want someone tell me that i am good enough to face the world so i can peacefully eat food that my mom brought to me.

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